Recently I was asked a very interesting question and one that probably all of us have asked ourselves at some point along the way in our walk with Christ. It is really a simple question that should demand a simple answer but as I considered it I realized that one must be very careful as to how they answer. Especially if we are honest with ourselves. The question was this: “Do you totally trust the Lord in all things and with all things?” Now keep in mind that the question was asked with the assumption that I had at some point in my life come to an understanding that I was a sinner in need of a Savior, repented and put my faith and trust in Him. So the question was not one of concern about my relationship with the Lord but was directed at someone who is already a true believer and follower of Christ.
I must admit that when the question was posed to me, my first thought was simply “Well of course I do!” and I was just about to voice it. But before I could say anything I realized that was not true and that I was full of self-righteousness to even think that. Yes, I have certainly put my faith and trust in Him and that brought about a change in my life. And yes, I look to what He did at the cross and the price He paid for my sin. And yes, my desire is to follow Him and I attempt to do just that. But in all reality I can’t say that I totally trust Him in all things and with all thins. So, if had voiced my first thoughts, they would have been full of pride.
The truth is that there are so many times that I think I can handle the situation on my own and I can fix the problem. I don’t even consider His involvement in any way and go about doing it my own way. Sometimes, He allows me to be successful in my effort and the result is a deeper sense of pride. But I really believe He is just setting me up for some future failure in order to teach me or remind me to trust Him. So, as I thought more about the question I carefully chose my words before I responded. “I’m not quite there” I said “and I don’t think I can ever get there.” What I meant with those words was this. Like Paul, the battle between my flesh and the Spirit is a daily thing and will probably be that way until He calls me home. That, of course, is not an excuse to give up and let my flesh rule but my desire should be to trust Him more and my efforts should match that desire. This is called spiritual growth and I’m not close to maturity yet. I need to be constantly reminded of this truth: “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
And that folks, is the rest of the story. Good day.